lack of job feedback

“The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them. ”
George Bernard Shaw

“If we keep doing what we're doing, we're going to keep getting what we're getting.”
Stephen R. Covey

I have a new skin to protect my macbook pro keyboard and I must say it feels weird but that's better than not covering it since i'm always getting the keys dirty or there're dangerous spills opportunities. I might remove it when I want to type faster or is not creating. The lack of interview feedback is making me depressed. I am seriously thinking of starting to sell my art and cross fingers since I need some revenue. An acquaintance of mine managed to get a job in a call centre, a few weeks after his arrival. JGuy said that it's because he's a guy. Well guy or not, he has a job even if it's odd hours (from 22:00 to 7:00), and is still getting interviews (he was in sales back in Mauritius and I guess this is a BIG plus because everywhere they ask you to sell here). For me? nada, dead, nil, rien. I had a few relatives who took my CV but it's a dead link. One is literally ignoring my questions for feedback and she's in a call centre in a bank I am interested in. Oh well *shrug* In the mean while I am running out of money.I feel embarrassed each time people ask me about my job quest because it feels like I am not making enough efforts or something is wrong with me. I've changed my resume so many times that I've stopped counting so what's wrong?????

Tomorrow I am going to do step classes. So far I tried bodycombat, bodyattack (high cardio and I love it), zumba, and bodyflow. It's not so bad and I definitely love combat and attack the most because they're high in energy. Zumba is more dance and free flowing but I'm not a latin dance person. At least I've these gym classes to keep me out of the house and think of something else than brood/feel helpless. I am just a little bit lost and has even to force myself to do art. I wonder how it'll be when I retire. I'm someone who always need to know what's up ahead in order to feel peaceful and this time, I see nothing to the point that it's scary. Some people think I am always whining, others think I am lucky because I'm not working, but I doubt they know what it is to live with fear in your stomach, to see time ticking by and not know why nobody wants to hire you. I am trying to be more proactive than reactive but sometimes I can't help thinking that living in the suburbs is killing opportunities for me as well as I did get feedback that I live too far (WTF) despite being only 1 hour-45 mins from downtown Toronto. This is insane.

I saw the silliest reply in the TIMES to the story about a soldier who spent $5000 on his tattoo and the ban of tattoos visibility in the police/military. A doctor was like how this guy should have donated this 5k to charities instead of spending it on a tattoo. I dislike the charity excuse. If you look around you, how many people spend zillions on superfluous things( I bet even that doctor does) than give to people who need it. I do support charity causes but to use charity as an excuse in order to justify your opinion of someone else behaviour sucks. Maybe this doctor, next time he wants to buy a new car or something, should instead give this money to charity huh? Stop the hypocrisy people.

exhausted

The week-end was spent working on resumes and cover letters. Dedicated? Not really. I saw a few ads late and did not want to delay my application more. I feel reassured when I see companies I am interested in, advertise positions I am also interested in. It means that positions are being made available although whether I get it or not is another story! I plunged and bought a few resume and cover letters books. I do have my online resources but the mass of information is too overwhelming and time consuming (for the amount of junk you get) although www. quintcareers.com has been the most useful so far. I managed to do pilates on Saturday and Sunday, and need to prepare myself for the incoming job fair on Wednesday. Reminder: I still need to figure out how to go to the job fair by public transit!

The incoming week will be challenging as I've a resume workshop, job fair and resume critique to attend. In addition, I am still looking at adverts and applying. Hopefully I'll be able to get something within the next two months. Crossing fingers. I need to network but I've no clue where to start *sigh* Being an new immigrant is proving itself to be quite tedious despite having lived in Toronto for 5 years and holding a degree there (although you can ask what's the value of a degree nowadays..). I should relax and invest myself in other activities (free if possible) although the long term financial aspect of my account is starting to worry me. I should hang out at www.365fashionrehab.com and get tips on how to budget, control my purchase impulses and flood my blog with wish list posts instead of showing my credit/debit card! Maybe being jobless is also a time to work on my drawing skills although each minute spent away from my pc and not working on my resume etc..makes me anxious. days look like months when you're jobless. How sad is that when your worth seems to be determined only by your job.

I really want to watch splice :



It looks cool and deals with an interesting issue of science research. Hopefully it'll be available online soon. :P

In order to obtain the free shipping option at Chapters, I also bought this book creative wildfire by L K Ludwig. I hope to get it soon and be able to review it. The pages I saw off amazon.com were quite interesting and I do hope it's not just another all around art journalling book!

it all begins with the first step

once you start something, the rest comes in more easily.

i hate calling but once i do the first one, I'm in the mood to go on ;P

thought of the day: you can NEVER know what people need or want until you ASK

so stop stressing about the small stuffs, its just the small stuffs..