to do and to see

“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”Sir Winston Churchill

“If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.”Nora Roberts

“Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.”André Gide

I so want to see this movie :Lage de la raison. It's so dreamy and Amelie like. Another event I really look forward is the Tim Burton exhibition at the TIFF-Toronto but no dates have been announced yet. All I know is that it'll be in November and I have it marked down and will definitely arranged my shifts so as I can go to see it. The collection is usually in NYC. I can't miss that event as I love Tim Burton's work and it's been a while since anything interesting happened in my life! I'm also ready for the Toronto Symphony Orchestra Light classics series: Creepy symphonies which will be played in October. I'm booking my ticket this week once I get my pay and I cross fingers that there'll still be some seats left as it'll be my first ever live symphony.

Sometimes I wonder where time has gone by. Today I was showing JGuy a picture of himself from 2002 and he looks so different now. Older and more tired. Unfortunately I have no pictures of us together at that time. It would have been a great way to compare the "us now" and "us before". I guess one of my regret is not having any pictures of us younger as I have always hated to have pictures of me taken (I Still do) but pictures are the only path to keeping memories alive when they're long forgotten.

When I look at pictures of my family when we were still kids, I can't help feeling sad and a certain longing. Suddenly I'll find myself back to our house before it was renovated, looking at Corps de Garde mountain from my back door, long before Super U supermarket was built and long before we extended our kitchen to the back wall. I'll remember my afternoon after school, peering at my neighbour's land watching birds and chicken (now everything has been replaced by a house and a bitchy neighbour). There are things that cannot be replaced.

I finally bought a clarisonic, and we'll see if it helps for my skin. I do think I see improvements though. Only time will tell. Summer is already coming to an end and it's depressing to see stores putting long sleeves clothes out. Why are they so much in a hurry? I'm adapting to Canada although to be honest, work is altogether a different story. I need to learn to conquer m fears and stop creating unnecessary competition with people in my head. If I always compare myself with what others do, how can I concentrate on being me?I have to accept that at some point, some people are smarter than me and that it is not the end of the world.

He is not here to hold my hand, so I need to learn to walk on my two feet until we meet again.