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my back hurts from carrying around a backpack weighing surely 5 kilos, same for my arms tugging my 48 kilos carry on. Montreal went by too fast. I had a glimpse of the city, the softness of spring and got to meet one of the coolest person of this city:R. I do hope to see her again in my future trips there. The afternoon countryside is gorgeous: hues of orange, pink and violet. Unfortunately my camera is somewhere in my backpack under my seat so all I've is my crappy 3 pixels phone. Better than nothing. I am tired though and I miss Montreal. I guess why I like this city more is because it's smaller and older than Toronto. Montreal has more character despite being less "modern", apparently it's due to the city not getting enough funds.

Otherwise it's good to have some of my craft materials back with me, as it means playing time. I still have to make my job quest a full time "job". I don't know I need a break and some time to reconcile with reality.

cleaning and still cleaning

"Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. Inhabit your moments. Don't rent them out to tomorrow. Do you know what your doing when you spend a moment wondering how things are going to turn out tomorrow? What am I doing? Your cheating yourself out of today. Today is calling to you, trying to get your attention, but your stuck on tomorrow, and today trickles away like water down a drain. You wake up the next morning and that today you wasted is gone forever. It's now yesterday. Some of those moments may have had wonderful things in store for you, but now you'll never know. ” Jerry Spinelli

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.” Mark Victor Hansen (born 1948)

Yesterday we had a rainy day and it was lovely because I love the smell of rain and wet leaves/soil. It's a welcomed change from the grey overcast we've been having lately. I'm either a sunny or rainy person.. For some reason, cloudy days makes me grumpy :/ my legs and arms ache after my tae bo sessions but I am determined to go to the end. I hope not to strain a muscle or something.

There might be a change of plan in my departure:leaving Thursday instead of Saturday. I've been put on a waiting list for Paris instead of London because my relatives who're coming to pick me up at the airport need to leave Montreal on Sunday than Monday-My aunt could not get her Monday off. To be honest I'll rather transit through Paris to avoid the 8 hours killer transit in Heathrow airport. It'll also give me time to talk to my aunt's sister in law about my plans to stay at her place for a while. If I land on Sunday from London, I've barely time to say hello and we leave the same night. I land at 17:50, shall be out around 18:30 or later after doing the immigration procedures and we need to leave Montreal same day at 21:00 for Toronto. So after 8 hours transit, 20 hours by plane, now i'll be heading for 8 more hours by car to Montreal! It's going to kill me..LOL

oh well let's cross fingers but I do feel bad to leave earlier esp for the bf. Else I'm almost done cleaning upstairs and now I need to remove stuffs in my bedroom. There're so many things I want to bring but I doubt I'll have enough weight :( everything left behind will be obsessively labeled so that my mother does not give my stuffs away!! Jeez I want to sell everything and buy all new in Montreal/Toronto. Bleeehhh. and the Canadian dollar is not decreasing. *sad* I still have more funds to exchange. Stressful stressful.

I'm working slowly on my journal pages and I believe I'll leave most of my scrap papers behind if there's no space to bring them. My creative style has changed and I tend to make my own papers than use ready made ones, unless for collage. we'll see.

On an unrelated note,what is the big deal about Lady Gaga?? Sure her style is eccentric but else she's just another manufactured artist IMO, a bit like the Madonna of 2010. I saw her video clip "bad romance" and was like o.O LOL I guess I'm getting old.

“Never regret yesterday. Life is in you today, and you make your tomorrow.” L. Ron Hubbard

today i had lunch with my former co-workers and it was so nice to see some of them again :) We were looking for roast pork but ended having something different which was not so bad. I'm feeling better as well and watching too many movies. So far I saw Coco avant Chanel (I was not really gripped by the movie. After a while the "chanel pout" à la Tatou was becoming a bit tiring and i don't know; it lacked something or maybe I was too distracted by Alessandro Nivola??

He's so yummy in this movie, at least those sultry gazes he gives chanel *sigh* I found him less interesting later when i went to check his pictures LOL. I still love Audrey Tatou though), Seraphine (long! but very well played by Yolande Moreau although I found some parts a bit loose), The Maid (lovely asian movie made in Singapore about ghosts and gives an overview of the Chinese beliefs during the Hungry Ghost month), Ju-ON the grudge 2 (japanese version), tale of two sisters (korean).

I love asian horror movies more than American ones since they're full of creepy creatures-I do get a bit fed up of the long hair, no/white face woman who "croaks"though- and traditional beliefs and superstitions are merged. Watching french movies as well made me realize how much I miss them as local movie theaters play mainly american blockbusters or Bollywood ones. I'm in love with the lush countrysides of the Provence and it's definitely *the* part of France where I'll love to settle down one day with my little cottage (I guess I've been reading books by Marcel Pagnol too often) and garden. If not France then I'm off for the British/Irish/Wales countrysides and go fairies hunting! Sometimes I feel like I was borned the wrong era but well.. I hope I'll have more opportunities to watch french movies in Montreal and I appreciate the fact that they've a film festival for french and international movies. American mass productions are excluded so that should be interesting to discover new independent productions.

Jeez I need to download more movies. On an unrelated, one of the reason why I love the Mac/Safari interface:

I was spared the hassle/frustration of going through all my history pages to look for a site I vaguely remembered and wanted to go back to. All I remembered was the contents and pictures. Thanks God the Mac interface is very intuitive to use and makes life so much easier even when you have to force quit applications! My only complain with Mac is the price else I doubt I'll be back to windows!! I had to use my mom's netbook and windows XP was rather painful..LOL I need to try windows 7 as i heard rather good things about it. Maybe I should install it together with Leopard OS on my future iMac.

mia

I've no idea whether it's the heat but lately I've been feeling very lethargic and i spend whole afternoons sleeping which is not very pleasant esp when you get up feeling sticky with sweat and achy. Last week was bf birthday and we spent it at Le Caudan Waterfront, we had sushi for lunch:yummy salmon sashimi, cucumber maki and salmon and smoked marlin sushi. There was also a japanese beef salad and "croque monsieur" and a beef tortilla. It was very enjoyable and the bf also bought me a wooden dodo. It's so cute and smells good! I was looking for some souvenirs to bring along with me when I'll be missing the white beaches and blue sea. I got him some T shirts and a zippo lighter. Apparently owning a zippo lighter is the secret dream of every guy and I don't see the point when I ask him where the lighter is, and he replies "at home". *shrug* but well if it keeps him happy so let it be.

I've been feeling rather depressed lately and I wonder if it's not because of the incoming "time of the month". I'm bored as well and my workaholic nature is kicking in: I need to do something in order to be happy :/ I'm tired of packing up my stuffs and I just want to go empty handed and buy new stuffs there because there'll be more trendy stuffs in Canada and more appropriate for the weather. It's like I am living in between two worlds: I can't make any future plans now since I am not in Canada yet and I can't plan for things here now as I am leaving soon. It sucks big deal. Surfing sites like design sponge, tiny ass apartments, makes me want to own my own place so bad. I guess I'll have to e-mail some friends to get some "apartment 101" tips. I do want to be able to repaint my walls though and add shelves. Maybe to keep myself busy, it would not hurt to create a visual journal of "the apartment of my dreams" with furnitures pics, fabrics and colours combo etc.. who knows it could be of some use later on and I can collect paint chips :) Martha Stewart has also some yummy interior decor pictures *sigh* House of my dream, where are thou?

jeez

My Macbook backlit keys won't light up whether I am in a dim room or pitch black. At least I know it's not some hardware related since by using lab tick, it's working. So now I have two useless keys: f5 and f6 that are supposed to control the back keys brightness. i ended assigning these keys as shortcuts in lab tick to control the brightness so as to have some peace of mind. Else I know this issue would have eaten me for days. I went through several mac forums and it helps to know that I am not alone. Maybe the light sensor is busted. *shrug* I can't recall if the backlit keys were working when I first had my Mac book pro. Oh well but it bugs me when things don't work perfectly whether i use it or not. Bah I can always hit the apple store later this month in Canada since there is none in Mauritius; only resellers and I don't trust them with my laptop.

Packing up is proving itself to be more tedious than expected. I am sad so say that I will have to leave most of my books if I want to bring my scrap supplies. At most I'll ask my brother to bring some for me or ask for excess luggage if this option is available. Sure I can rebuy all my books but this is currently not an option as I'll have to limit my expenses once in Canada until I get a job. There are so many things on my mind and sometimes I feel overwhelmed :/ I'm already surfing ikea and related sites for apartment related items and maybe I should slow down and just breathe. Les choses viendront d'elles même en temps et lieux.